flashback, fast forward, and all the in between

there are instances and prolonged periods,
when i am spellbound into the hurry,
hopped up on two feet walking too fast,
trying to conquer instead of simply interact,
i am red handed,
red face flushed with the guilty blood,
i have been called aloof,
apathetic,
and a failure,
i have closed my own doors of opportunity just being too stubborn to see,
walking too fast to notice,
and if we all aren't trying to get better,
then what are we really doing,
what exactly are we doing,
i am trying to give new words to the axioms of our living